same same but different

today i finally found some time to watch the movie "same same but different".

i've had the movie lying around my room for such a long time now and i've always wanted to watch it, but somehow i've never gotten around to do it.

watching it today was really wonderful. seeing this movie made me want to go to cambodia even more than i already want to, and besides that the movie tells the sad story about a young german guy who falls in love with a former prostitute from cambodia, who is HIV positive. It's nothing like a typical love story, especially since it is based on the autobiographic novel that the german guy wrote, and it's truly gripping and sad but still a wonderful movie. 

AND it has a great soundtrack, which made me discover really nice artists like these two here:

Miss Kittin - 3eme Sexe (Les amours imaginaires) from Blue Like Velvet on Vimeo.
the song is called "3éme sexes" and it's from Miss Kittin, to me this song its just wonderful. plus this video is a fan made video about the movie "les amours imaginaires", another movie i've been wanting to watch for ages, definitely next on my movies to watch list! this song is played in the end of the movie, and i'm so happy i've discovered charlotte gainsbourg, and so sad i've only just discovered her yet. wish i would've known her longer, i could have been enjoying her music for such a long time already. well but i'm glad i can do now. while looking for some volunteer projects in cambodia, i stumbled upon this blog

http://juliusinpp.wordpress.com/ 

it's really interesting to read about the experiences of julius (i guess?) in phnom penh and i wish i could be there in an instant and start living there as well.

OH BOY

yesterday i had the chance to go see the premiere of the movie "OH BOY" by jan ole gerster, starring tom schilling.
It is a stunning movie, filmed completely in black and white, about a guy in his mid twenties who is living in berlin and does not really know what to do with his life. He quit university two years ago but has not told his father, from whom he is still receiving money every month. One morning his girlfriend breaks up with him and his father dissolves his bank account, and then he tries to find a decent cup of coffee all over town and meets many different people on his search.
After the screening the director and the main actor talked about the movie and how it developed and the audience had some time to ask question and discuss the movie. It was a wonderful evening and i wish i could do this every day.

this music is made for walking

last friday i was on my way to the hairdresser and listened to music on my iPod, when one of my favorite songs started playing i started walking faster almost dancing all my way to the hairdresser,walking past so many people still sitting outside enjoying the warm weather and having their first drinks already, it was the most amazing feeling ever. i felt relieved and perfectly happy. the song i was listening to was "sheepdog"by "mando diao"

 

"Don`t know why I can`t locate this feeling,
that I would rather be with you
It makes no sense, you`re crying out loud,
that I may love you
This stress is wasting my emotions that I would rather be with you
Don`t let them closer to this secret...that I may love you"

on my way back home i listened to another song by "mando diao"- "maybe just sad", this song is kind of quiet and really sad and it was the first time i ever had time to listen to it closely. I've been in possession of the album since it came out but somehow i never really managed to listen to this song, so this time i walked home slowly, enjoying the warm evening breeze, thinking about my day and watching the cars pass by.

 

Come on children, let's get out from a bunker in the underground
Let's take the train to a place, we can hide, and see what all the soldiers are talking about
Are they happy or maybe just sad,
are they proud of the upper class
Is it easy for them to feel free or am I just too blind to see

That day i discovered that mando diao make the perfect music to travel to, i have listened to them on so many occasions, while being on the train, walking home or simple being alone. It's great music to think to. I hope they will come to Germany soon.

on the train

being on the train everyday is one of the things i'm in a love/hate relationship with.I have to take the train for at least 40 minutes nearly everyday to get back and forth from my home to my beloved school.It has become my daily routine to stare out of the window seeing the same buildings pass by day by day and let my thoughts wander.there is nothing that I enjoy more than watching people - not in a creepy way - but to observe what they are doing and where they are going. Our society is such an interesting thing to watch and analyze, plus observing other people is a great way to forget about my own worries and problems.
And even though sometimes it is really annoying to be on the train for a long time, because all you want is to arrive at your destination, it has something slow, quiet and almost meditative. I think that is something I am in desperate need of at the moment, with all the stress and time passing by faster than ever, I think I need more time for myself, more time to let go of my worries.

last day of fall break

October 14, 2012 - the last day of my last fall break for forever (assuming i won't be a teacher in the future). I've already had my last summer break, and now time just seems to be passing by so fast. Only three more months to go and i have to write my final exams, to months later my oral exam and then i will be done with high school. It's really not the easiest thing to realize, and to be honest i think i still haven't realized it yet, even though it has been the on-going topic of so many conversations since my last year of school started.

Today has been an incredibly lazy day, i have spent most of my day watching "The Good Wife" on my laptop, trying to tidy up my room and reading NEON. Then i remembered that i still have some homework to do, which is due tomorrow, so i made myself a really nice chai.
Along with my chai tea some rice waffles and homemade cookies from my mum, some music from "Waters" and there i was, ready to do my homework in a perfect matter.
While flipping through the text i had to read for my art class and marking every third line, i noticed how much i like being a student. Labeling the text, drinking tea and educating myself felt really good. Call me a nerd, but i just love that feeling. Same when walking somewhere, carrying my books in my arms for everyone to see or spending long afternoons at the public library downtown, read through lots and lots of textbooks and preparing a paper for class. There is so much information out there and so many things to learn and experience, it's wonderful. At this moment, i'm pretty sure i will love university life - although i know it's going to be a huge amount of work, it's going to be great.

Right now life doesn't seem that bad.