exams, shakespeare and train rides

even though i'm done with my written exams and i know how easy it actually is to start learning on time and do something, now that more exams are coming up i stopped doing it. made my study sheet ten minutes ago and the exam is tomorrow morning. i guess all the motivation i had a week ago is already gone, obviously things aren't going to change for the last two months of school.

some days ago i realized that saying things like "time changes everything" or "times have changed" are actually true and not only some petty excuses for your own mistakes. people and group constellations change and it's no ones fault. opinions and expectations change over time, and that is not because people can't decide and always want to adapt to expectations of others, they really just change over time  because you're influenced by everything around you - this sounds way too tacky, but then again, it is true. 
there is nothing wrong in distancing yourself from former friends, someday you realize that it is alright and that you don't feel such a strong connection to them anymore (and likewise). the only thing that could bother you is that you have to realize that you were wrong all the time when you were thinking that you could be friends forever and would never let go of each other. 

i'm a huge fan of shakespeare. i had to read his play "Macbeth" in Canada and now we are reading it again with my English class in Germany. a lot of my classmates aren't really fond of the language, but i thing there is hardly anything more beautifully written than his plays. 

"That is a step
On which I must fall down, or else o'erleap,
For in my way it lies. Stars, hide your fires;
Let not light see my black and deep desires.
The eye wink at the hand, yet let that be
Which the eye fears, when it is done, to see."

Macbeth, Act I, Scene 4 

i have recently found out that it is indeed possible to "meet" someone on the train and then actually find out who they were, later. success!