everything you didn't do

so. jamie cullum has released the first single of his new album "momentum". it's called "everything you didn't do" and it's exactly what i need right now.
it has been quite a while that i enjoyed listening to jamie cullum, about 3 years ago i didn't listen to anything else and even went to his concert.

his last album ("the pursuit") always made me completely happy, melancholy and encouraged at the same time.
working on the presentation for my final exam in two weeks, a new, great album of jamie cullum is just the right thing to help me enjoy the next few days of hard working (at least i should work hard).

anyways, after going on about how much i STILL love his music, here's the link to the video:

http://www.tape.tv/vid/431131

unfortunately i'm not able to share the youtube link, since it doesn't work in germany and i haven't found the video anywhere else, that would led me embed the video :(

i don't know

high school done.
here you go girl
go do whatever you want
you can do everything
the world is yours
it's time to go out there
but

what do i want?

california here we come

I've been sick a week ago and all i've been doing was staying in bed, sleeping, reading and watching lots and lots of tv series. Finally started watching "The O.C.", while it was actually on television a few years ago i wasn't really interested and now, out of boredom i started watching it and i was taken in after the first episode.

It's not something that i would normally watch, but it has something about it that i just love. Maybe it's the great cast, including Rachel Bilson and Adam Brody (!!) or the setting, a rich californian neighborhood surrounded by beaches, pools and palm trees, or the music, taking me back a couple of years.

Also i'm convinced that, this is the best way to spend my days, watching the O.C and drinking tea, considering i'm sick anyway. I do miss school a little bit though, haven't seen any of my friends for the past days and break is starting tomorrow so i won't see them for at least another week since nearly everyone is going away.

Well, what do I care, right? I now have found Marissa, Ryan, Summer and most important of all, Seth to spend my time with - this sounds pathetic, i know.. but after all, i really don't care. Plus, Adam Brody is way too hot to make me care about anything else at the moment.

ps: real life-seth cohen, if you are out there, could you please show up?

rant

Modern communication is a blessing on the one hand and a nuisance on the other.
I admit that I like being on Facebook. I use it for various purposes, which include looking at other peoples profile pages, uploading pictures, updating my status and messaging - all of these are things, for which Facebook is intended. At the same time, I don't like how you can find out so much about one person, just by looking at their profile and their pictures, how you get loads of status updates from people you barely care about and how the messaging on Facebook affects your way of communicating with your friends.
If you are messaging on Facebook you can see if the person who you wrote your message to, has already read it or not. You see if the person has read it, and expect an answer, because you can see the small check mark next to the message.
Whenever you think about the answer you are still waiting for, you know how the person has already read your message and still hasn't answered. You start to ask yourself the most ridiculous questions like "What was wrong with my message?" or "Why is he/she not answering, even though he/she has read it 2 days ago?".
Being able to know, what other people are up to is really not an advantage all the time, because you will start wanting to know more and start asking questions about things that aren't even your business in the first place after a while, and this is not healthy and it intrudes the other ones privacy.
Why can't we just all go back to writing letters or calling people or just talking to them in person and arrange everything in person? I know that this would cause a lot of problems as well, but i really like the idea of not being depending on social media to have a nice and easy conversation with someone.

However i must admit, that i never had the guts to delete my Facebook account or stop communicating via social media. I think me and Facebook are in a love-hate relationship, that only I cling to.

I also seemed to start adding a gif to most of my posts - here is to new traditions!

SECRET 7''

a friend of mine took a photo of me as an entry for the secret 7" contest, where you should design a cover for a song by laura marling, called "the beast".
it would make me super happy if anyone who reads this could just take a second to vote for the picture right here, so the picture gets selected (along with 30-50 others) to be displayed in an art gallery in london!

the photo:

the link to vote:

http://www.talenthouse.com/creativeinvites/preview/acf445aeeae32e4f6a8721950d002e6f/888


THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

exams, shakespeare and train rides

even though i'm done with my written exams and i know how easy it actually is to start learning on time and do something, now that more exams are coming up i stopped doing it. made my study sheet ten minutes ago and the exam is tomorrow morning. i guess all the motivation i had a week ago is already gone, obviously things aren't going to change for the last two months of school.

some days ago i realized that saying things like "time changes everything" or "times have changed" are actually true and not only some petty excuses for your own mistakes. people and group constellations change and it's no ones fault. opinions and expectations change over time, and that is not because people can't decide and always want to adapt to expectations of others, they really just change over time  because you're influenced by everything around you - this sounds way too tacky, but then again, it is true. 
there is nothing wrong in distancing yourself from former friends, someday you realize that it is alright and that you don't feel such a strong connection to them anymore (and likewise). the only thing that could bother you is that you have to realize that you were wrong all the time when you were thinking that you could be friends forever and would never let go of each other. 

i'm a huge fan of shakespeare. i had to read his play "Macbeth" in Canada and now we are reading it again with my English class in Germany. a lot of my classmates aren't really fond of the language, but i thing there is hardly anything more beautifully written than his plays. 

"That is a step
On which I must fall down, or else o'erleap,
For in my way it lies. Stars, hide your fires;
Let not light see my black and deep desires.
The eye wink at the hand, yet let that be
Which the eye fears, when it is done, to see."

Macbeth, Act I, Scene 4 

i have recently found out that it is indeed possible to "meet" someone on the train and then actually find out who they were, later. success! 

i'm so scared of tomorrows exam. it's my last one, but it is also the hardest one - biology.
i think it is insane that during 4 hours i can destroy my whole f**** future with this one exam.

freaking out.