sometimes i miss watching gilmore girls.

No time for innocence, or sitting on the fence

today i took a break of studying and discovered this lovely song. plus i really like the way this video is made






even though my finals start in 4 days i feel fine. i am little bit excited but not too much, i'm just really glad that they will be over soon and i can concentrate on other stuff.

approximate sunlight

I used to dream of time machines

now it's been said that we're post everything

as a child imagining 

neck ties and coast lines

I seen the show man, what a sight

drenched us in approximated sunlight

the crowd was small and mostly blind

but kind, you're too kind 

Now you are, how you were when you were real. 

there are so many things i do, instead of doing the one and only thing is should be doing now. studying for finals.
screw that.
i have been doing so many random stuff. started reading my favorite book again, listened to endless amounts of music, browsed the web in search for some new clothing and just sat in my room. avoiding everything and everyone else.

recently discovered elliot smith and can't stop listening now. i think this is the way i could spend my whole life, doing nothing else but listening to music.

winter shades

my friend, paulina, took these pictures a while ago. she is on her way to become a really great photographer and she takes the most beautiful and sad pictures. 

http://zeum-mag.com/2012/09/01/paulina-metzscher/

Elijah Wood

This video made my day, nothing better than Elijah Wood and Dominic Monaghan

melancholia

For the last two weeks i had more time to think, than i usually have. I have been busy studying for my finals,writing applications and organizing my future life. But now, i'm taking a break.

I have had the most wonderful two weeks. I feel like i've lived my life in black and white.

My soundtrack consisted of "Asleep" and "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out" by "The Smiths", "Youth" by "Daughter", "Society" by Eddie Vedder, "Scarborough Fair"by Simon and Garfunkel. And a bunch of the Cure and Radiohead songs. 

My dad told me that i would listen to too much sad music. I know that i do. And i like it. I like being sad. Sometimes a little bit of pain is good. Being sad is almost comfortable. There is nothing better than cuddling up in bed, staring at the ceiling and listen to wonderful, melancholy music. That's something that would never work with a fun and happy song. Those are songs to dance to. But it's winter, it's cold and i don't want to dance. I want to think. I want to indulge in melancholia. 

I'm pretty sure that this is not the most healthy thing to do, but i feel like this melancholia and sadness has become a part of me. And i don't want to let it go. 

I feel fine, being sad.